Happy First Birthday to My Angel Son

Today marks my angel son’s first birthday. He was born on November 12th of last year, when I was 19 weeks and 5 days.

I thought today would be extremely hard for me to handle, but instead, I find myself overwhelmed with gratitude for the many blessings I’ve received recently. It’s so easy to get wrapped up in anger, sadness, jealousy, and ungratefulness. No, I am not happy that I lost my son to an incompetent cervix—but I am thankful for everything and everyone who has come into my life after my loss.

My husband has been my biggest supporter and backbone throughout our entire pregnancy loss. I am so thankful for my family, my pastor, and my friends for their unwavering support. I’m also grateful for my fans and my husband’s fans who have shown us so much love. All of you make a huge difference in my life. It truly takes a village to get through something as difficult as losing a baby.

Today is GAME DAY—what a coincidence. Last year, I lost my son on a Sunday night… on GAME DAY. This year, my son’s birthday falls on Monday Night Football. That alone reminds me of just how special you are. I pray that your father shows out for you today. I am also praying for his health, strength, courage, and many touchdowns.

Son, we know you continue to watch over us, and I hope we make you proud. You have so many people thinking of you and so many people praying for us. You taught me so much—how to be appreciative, how to slow down, and how to never take anything for granted.

We are proud angel parents.

To all the angel mothers reading this, I pray for your strength and courage. You can get through these tough days, months, and years. God is always right by our side every step of the way—even when it doesn’t feel like it. Thank you all for your prayers and kind words.

With love,
Mrs. Goodwin