Marquise’s Point of View: WEEK 19 PREGNANCY BLOG

Love Like MG / Wednesday, October 16th, 2019

Yesterday was an eventful day, as it officially marks 19 weeks we have been pregnant! First and foremost I just wanna thank God for blessing us with another opportunity to be pregnant again. For those of you who are reading this blog for the first time, my wife has previously struggled with an incompetent cervix. My wife’s incompetent cervix caused complications during our last two pregnancies and unfortunately things didn’t end well for us. We end up losing a singleton baby November 12, 2017 at 19 weeks 5 days. And the following November 25, 2018 we lost twins at 19 weeks 4 days. 

No one knows struggle when it comes to pregnancy like my wife and I, unless you’ve gone through the same thing. So we feel inclined to share our story in an effort to help others who also struggle with pregnancy. 

We Are 19 Weeks

So here we are 19 weeks exact in our third pregnancy in 3 years. As you can probably imagine, my wife is on edge; given the circumstances of our past she has every right to be!! If she feels ANYTHING she’s calling the doctors, reassuring that everything is ok. I believe that she’s just nervous/anxious because of how her body has responded in the past during this 19 week period.

Obviously I’ve never been pregnant before, so I can’t tell you how she is feeling on the inside. But in my opinion, what she is feeling potentially is more good than bad. Besides the minor cramps she’s feeling, I think she’s becoming more aware of the baby as it is growing daily. I think feeling the baby inside her stomach more is kind of throwing her for a loop and making her feel like some issues are happening. When in actuality, it’s really just the baby moving around and growing. On top of that, a growing uterus.

incompetent but hopeful-child loss

My Perspective

Me on the other hand, I’m not nervous at all, nor was I really nervous the other times before. You’re probably thinking, well why wasn’t I worried or nervous. Well, I dedicate my lack of fear, to my extreme faith in God! Not to say my wife lacks faith, she exudes extreme faith in God daily! She prays consistently and dives into the word even more than me at times! I’ve dealt with so much over my life that I’ve become almost numb to things that I’m supposed to give to God and let him handle.

One of my favorite scriptures in the Bible I often refer to when I’m feeling like I want to give up or when I question Gods work is in the book of Proverbs 3: 4-6. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Lean not to your own understanding but in all ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight.” Reading this scripture provides so much comfort for me, because I truly believe it, wholeheartedly. It’s not up to me whether our baby will be born or not; ultimately that’s Gods decision, so why worry about something that’s totally out of my control, right? 

incompetent but hopeful-child loss

The visit with our Dr. was nothing less than encouraging. Mo’s cervix is as long as ever and the baby is healthy and growing. 


5 Replies to “Marquise’s Point of View: WEEK 19 PREGNANCY BLOG”

  1. Just before I read this post. I also read a post on the today show Instagram page where a couple had lost their twins after a devastating miscarriage and recently sent a post stating “the storm is over” with the birth of their rainbow baby. I’m continuing in prayer that your storm is now over as well and you and your wife will get your rainbow baby. Keeping you guys lifted up in prayer for a healthy baby and smooth pregnancy.

  2. I love you both. I know your struggles and heartbreak with past pregnancies. God bless you both. Can’t wait to see this little one make his or her appearance💙💗

  3. Proverbs 4-6 is the same verse I say every day. Some days are easier then others but everytime I read the verse I know it’s exactly how God has planned it. I have lived in Rowlett all my life so you are our hometown hero. I will continue to pray for you and your wife for a healthy pregnancy.

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