Yesterday was an eventful day, as it officially marks 19 weeks we have been pregnant! First and foremost I just wanna thank God for blessing us with another opportunity to be pregnant again. For those of you who are reading this blog for the first time, my wife has previously struggled with an incompetent cervix. My wife’s incompetent cervix caused complications during our last two pregnancies and unfortunately things didn’t end well for us. We end up losing a singleton baby November 12, 2017 at 19 weeks 5 days. And the following November 25, 2018 we lost twins at 19 weeks 4 days.
No one knows struggle when it comes to pregnancy like my wife and I, unless you’ve gone through the same thing. So we feel inclined to share our story in an effort to help others who also struggle with pregnancy.
We Are 19 Weeks
So here we are 19 weeks exact in our third pregnancy in 3 years. As you can probably imagine, my wife is on edge; given the circumstances of our past she has every right to be!! If she feels ANYTHING she’s calling the doctors, reassuring that everything is ok. I believe that she’s just nervous/anxious because of how her body has responded in the past during this 19 week period.
Obviously I’ve never been pregnant before, so I can’t tell you how she is feeling on the inside. But in my opinion, what she is feeling potentially is more good than bad. Besides the minor cramps she’s feeling, I think she’s becoming more aware of the baby as it is growing daily. I think feeling the baby inside her stomach more is kind of throwing her for a loop and making her feel like some issues are happening. When in actuality, it’s really just the baby moving around and growing. On top of that, a growing uterus.
Me on the other hand, I’m not nervous at all, nor was I really nervous the other times before. You’re probably thinking, well why wasn’t I worried or nervous. Well, I dedicate my lack of fear, to my extreme faith in God! Not to say my wife lacks faith, she exudes extreme faith in God daily! She prays consistently and dives into the word even more than me at times! I’ve dealt with so much over my life that I’ve become almost numb to things that I’m supposed to give to God and let him handle.
One of my favorite scriptures in the Bible I often refer to when I’m feeling like I want to give up or when I question Gods work is in the book of Proverbs 3: 4-6. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Lean not to your own understanding but in all ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight.” Reading this scripture provides so much comfort for me, because I truly believe it, wholeheartedly. It’s not up to me whether our baby will be born or not; ultimately that’s Gods decision, so why worry about something that’s totally out of my control, right?
The visit with our Dr. was nothing less than encouraging. Mo’s cervix is as long as ever and the baby is healthy and growing.