I Just Couldn’t Wait Until Sunday, I Have To Post This Particular Message
I am hurting with so many emotions inside. I will still be posting my original post on Sunday. I just couldn’t wait until Sunday to post this particular message. This past week has been rough for me. Tomorrow, I am heading to South Carolina with my dear mother and grandmother to attend a funeral. We just lost a dear aunt this past Saturday.
Just sitting around thinking, I realized this didn’t hurt me as much as it hurt my mother and grandmother. I mean I knew my aunt Renee, but I didn’t have a really close bond with her or any of my family living in South Carolina. I haven’t seen them since I was a little girl. So many years lost due to me moving to Texas to attend college.
My heart goes out to my family and I can’t wait to see you all at the funeral. Sucks that I have to see you all in this type of setting. I do not like going to funerals at all. My emotions are just everywhere right now. I don’t think I will be able to stand strong.
The reason I really had to post today was because I just recently found out about the recent passing of a friend today. A new friend that I had the pleasure of meeting this past December at a Christmas party. I know we had just met each other but when we did, we had an instant bond. That instant connection lead us to discussions about our lives and our struggles.
“You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world” (1 John 4:4).
Dear friend, my heart and prayers go out to your family. I am so devastated about the news of your passing. I’ve been crying on and off all day. I don’t really have the words to express how I feel right now. I never saw this coming. I’m angry, frustrated, and heartbroken all at the same time. This could’ve been me or another woman grieving over a loss, life struggles, etc.
Our recent talk this past Monday lead me to believe you were okay. Never in a million years did I see this happening. With loss after loss, I’m wondering when I will break. I’m already broken as is and trying to piece my life back together. Just when you think it can’t get any worse, the unimaginative happens. All I can do is pray and keep my head held high.
Again, to your parents and brother, I am so sorry for your loss. You were a beautiful, intelligent woman. I am so glad I was able to meet you. May the lord be with your family during this tough time.
For those of you out there who have experienced losses back to back, keep your head high. Turn your worries into prayer. Turn your pain into prayer and ask God for guidance. This week has been rough for me to say the least. However, I am so happy I created this blog. It allows me to express my feelings and thoughts. It just so happened that I really needed to express this pain I was having right now.
I feel much better now. Thank you all for reading.