I Just Couldn’t Wait Until Sunday, I Have To Post This Particular Message


Experiencing Loss / Friday, January 26th, 2018

I Just Couldn’t Wait Until Sunday, I Have To Post This Particular Message

I am hurting with so many emotions inside. I will still be posting my original post on Sunday. I just couldn’t wait until Sunday to post this particular message. This past week has been rough for me. Tomorrow, I am heading to South Carolina with my dear mother and grandmother to attend a funeral. We just lost a dear aunt this past Saturday.

Just sitting around thinking, I realized this didn’t hurt me as much as it hurt my mother and grandmother. I mean I knew my aunt Renee, but I didn’t have a really close bond with her or any of my family living in South Carolina. I haven’t seen them since I was a little girl. So many years lost due to me moving to Texas to attend college.

My heart goes out to my family and I can’t wait to see you all at the funeral. Sucks that I have to see you all in this type of setting. I do not like going to funerals at all. My emotions are just everywhere right now. I don’t think I will be able to stand strong.

The reason I really had to post today was because I just recently found out about the recent passing of a friend today. A new friend that I had the pleasure of meeting this past December at a Christmas party. I know we had just met each other but when we did, we had an instant bond. That instant connection lead us to discussions about our lives and our struggles.

“You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world” (1 John 4:4).

Dear friend, my heart and prayers go out to your family. I am so devastated about the news of your passing. I’ve been crying on and off all day. I don’t really have the words to express how I feel right now. I never saw this coming. I’m angry, frustrated, and heartbroken all at the same time. This could’ve been me or another woman grieving over a loss, life struggles, etc.

Our recent talk this past Monday lead me to believe you were okay. Never in a million years did I see this happening. With loss after loss, I’m wondering when I will break. I’m already broken as is and trying to piece my life back together. Just when you think it can’t get any worse, the unimaginative happens. All I can do is pray and keep my head held high.

Again, to your parents and brother, I am so sorry for your loss. You were a beautiful, intelligent woman. I am so glad I was able to meet you. May the lord be with your family during this tough time.

For those of you out there who have experienced losses back to back, keep your head high. Turn your worries into prayer. Turn your pain into prayer and ask God for guidance. This week has been rough for me to say the least. However, I am so happy I created this blog. It allows me to express my feelings and thoughts. It just so happened that I really needed to express this pain I was having right now.

I feel much better now. Thank you all for reading.

With Love,
Mrs. Goodwin

8 Replies to “I Just Couldn’t Wait Until Sunday, I Have To Post This Particular Message”

  1. My condolences go out to you morgan. I know how it feels to lose someone close to you I lost my aunt then grandmother then my other aunt all within a 2-3 Year time period. It was hard but we had to stay strong and continue to rely on the word of God. Keep your head up and keep moving forward.

  2. My dearest Mo I feel your pain thru this blog I also feel your strong spirit if it touches others the way it did me you will help a lot of others to get thru their loss and Usher the Peace of God into their journey moving Forward.Love you Grandma .

  3. Morgan I always say that sometimes when I’m going through something, I have to verbalize it, get it out. Or put it on paper and I feel a little bit better it doesn’t change the way I feel but I feel a tad bit better because I was able to get it out . Continued prayer to you and your husband and also for to loss of your friend and Aunt.

  4. I am so sorry that you experienced another loss, Sometimes it feels like one thing happens after another and you are just waiting for your breaking point. I will be praying for you and I am so glad I found your info online and now you have this blog that shows us mothers who have lost their babies, that hey I am not alone in what I am feeling and what I am feeling is normal. Blessings to you and your beautiful family.

  5. Morgan,
    I am very sorry to hear about the loss of your aunt and your friend and my deep condolences go out to your family and the family of your dear friend, my prayer is that you are all able to find peace and strength that comes from our Heavenly Father above. I find peace in reading Philippians 4:6, 7, 13 & 19. Therapist say that sometimes writing is the best medicine because you can get your emotions out, it allows you to release emotions that are in your heart. Through your heartfelt words, you also help others to deal with pain and loss. I am thankful for your blog and being able to share “pain”, if that makes any sense. Your reply to me through my email truly helped me and I appreciated your advice on how my beautiful daughter in law must be feeling and how your feelings that your own mother in law might be feeling.
    Please know that you my friend (even if we haven’t met) are in my thoughts and prayers. May you have a safe journey while traveling to be with your family during this very difficult time. May the family of your friend find peace & comfort also while being together during this great sadness.
    Sincerely,
    Aimee

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